Same Old Dishes

It’s quite scary,
when I find myself
ordering the same old dishes,
as I did the last time I was here,
even after scrutinising the menu thoroughly.

I thought I’m here
to make new decisions,
to choose new food,
but I’m still not beyond
the power of habit.

Made me wonder
how much of my past lives
am I repeating in this life,
how much of the illusion of freedom I have
when I’m still bound by habit.

(Thank goodness habits can be changed with increase in mindfulness.)